My dad had a heart attack. Being a freshman and coming home one day realizing that your dad isn’t there, and then your mom comes home and is like, “Dad’s in the hospital. They think he has had a heart attack.” That’s pretty hard. It’s kind of like, “What’s going on?” Everything had been so perfect and in order up until this point. What’s going to happen to him?” So it’s just a matter of trusting God in that instance and praying that it’s all going to work out.
So we are all thinking, “Okay, everything is looking up. It’s going to be so much better,” but it wasn’t even a year later, in fact, it was that December, so like halfway through my sophomore year, he was in the hospital again for appendicitis. So I mean again, that was so sudden. We were just kind of like, “What is going on God?” I mean, it was just one thing after another. They found out that when they took out his appendix that the cause of it was cancer. All they had to do was just cut it out, so that was really a blessing in disguise. It was amazing to see how the Lord used this instance, it’s really hard for us to see, but the Lord’s like, “Don’t you see? I just saved his life here. If he didn’t have that, then he would have continued to have cancer.”
In that instance, like seeing nurses in the hospital and how they treated him, the Lord just kind of pointed me in that direction. It was like, “That’s what I want you to do.” I mean seeing how loving and compassionate they were, just showing the passion in what they do. That’s when the Lord really spoke to me, and said, “That’s what you have been called to do.” All you really have is love, and that’s like all you have to give. There’s nothing else out there. Everything else is fleeting. It’s so materialistic. Really it all comes down to love and how you love one another as Christ loved the church.
It was actually some time last year, he was diagnosed with Carcinoma In Situ, which is basically a stage zero cancer, so he is just kind of going through it all over again. I mean, plus between that and trying to do college stuff, trying to get ready to go to college, I mean, it’s really been a matter of just trusting the Lord and saying like, “Okay God, I know you’ve already written out my future. You know what it holds in store. I just ask that your will be done and that it will play out how you want it to play out.”
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