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Ex-gay hip-hop artist never dreamed a new life was possible.

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I'm living proof that a real demon can be defeated.

From loving violence to loving God.

Because I said "hi" she didn't kill herself.

Filled my fatherless void with drugs.

Why did God let the love of my life die?

Overcoming pornography and fantasy.

Drove my drunk Dad home at age 12.

My control of women stemmed from something deeper.

The bullet is still in my head.

Daddy pain.

Behind the homosexuality was a person.

Headed to abortion clinic just after recommitting to Christ.

I embraced her after she killed my son.

Matt Damon played me as an FBI Informant.

Here's my Heart (music video)

Former racist and Black Panther.

A Buddhist for 25 years until I had a vision of Jesus.

Unloved by my husband ... and God.

Dad's affair at church left me bitter.

This thing inside me screamed, "No, don't pray!"

Volcano erupted as we prayed by the crater.

He loved me through the sexual abuse—then suddenly died.

Very rich and very addicted.

Long hair and guitars are of the devil?

Assaulted four with a knife, but a prison friend modeled a better way.

I'll open this dictionary and ask God to give me a word.

Who was the greatest rabbi who ever lived?

When the preacher said Jesus Christ, I thought he was cussing.

Traveled 360 miles a week for two years to fix my gambling addiction.

Hope in front of me. (music video)

NFL role model living a double life.

Forgiveness set me free.

Thought partying would make me happy.

Curled up in my closet to escape, but found purpose instead.

Found freedom in prison.

My atheist jail mate started reading the Bible.

Barely escaped Tornado disaster.

This amputee mows fields and rides horses.

When I confessed I was a faker, the church accepted me with love.

Prostituted myself for drugs.

My criminal ways left during an out of body experience (full story)

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Marriage saved despite my affairs.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

First child at 13, then prison, then a city leader.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Discovered my wife, finally, in the midst of a high performance lifestyle.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

So this lady asks to hold my hands and pray in the parking lot.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Baseball All-Star, girlfriend with benefits. Life seemed perfect.

No one in the youth group would talk to me.

Finally free from being drugged and gang raped.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

My Rock-n-Roll Dreams Turned to Worship.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Devastated by my little league coach.

The dangerous walk of faith.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

From Vice President to a much higher position.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

When drums and guitars first hit the churches.

Forgave the hunter who shot Dad in the head.

I got my life back after being diagnosed with M.S.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

My brother's tragedy led to my redemption.

Stayed gone until grace brought her home.

Even a great dad cannot meet the deepest needs.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

The gift of a son changed my wild lifestyle.

I stepped up as a man and forgave my parents.

Angry. Who do I blame?

I can't really remember the traumatic event.

Learning that my Mormonism was not Christian broke my heart.

A radical lesbian, consulting the dead—my new life moved beyond all that.

Homosexuality and my Dad the preacher.

I was shocked. They were genuine.

As an atheist, I blamed God. Or was it someone else?

Illiterate, lived in a shack, but still found success.

I had sold my body, but God called me a virgin.

My head in the jaws of a mountain lion.

Running the L.A. Dodgers means nothing if my son is dead.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

I'm 104, and I knew Al Capone and his gangsters.

During the ‘60s I saw some weird supernatural stuff.

Calvary Chapel founder Chuck Smith with Love Song, singing "Welcome Back"

Carlous and Janelle

No food for days until we heard the music.

Big Daddy Weave's Mike Weaver

Coped with "fatboy" jokes by cracking them first.

Big Daddy Weave's Mike Weaver

Redeemed (music video)

Convinced I was worthless.

Anxiety overwhelmed me, but I found help.

Pain turns to strength in the midst of tragedy.

Early abuse caused later fear and anger.

Believed in the Big Bang until my heart changed my mind.

A man with eight kids wept when I asked him to adopt me.

Should I be with a man or a woman?

Date-raped. Pregnant.

What would my free love, hippie parents think?

I was the watchman for athlete-cheerleader trysts.

Even my fellow drug users said I was in trouble.

I’d do anything to feed my addiction.

Asked God to kill my husband.

The sex addiction began at age 15.

I knew I didn't have what it takes.

My debauchery destroyed my marriage.

From corporate jets to food stamps.

Dad said no to my cowboy dreams.

Jesus told me to quit the drugs and raise a godly infant.

Shoot out with the police

A stroke ended my dental practice and my adultery.

The spirits I channeled entered and exited.

I tied fishing wire to the rifle trigger.

My Dad was the Evel Knievel of the neighborhood.

Felt the bed shaking as I cried out to God.

The doctor said I will be an albino.

Declared dead on arrival.

Shacked up at 14, but now we lead marriage classes.

Why can't my marriage be like the movies?

Winning an NBA ring with Dr. J was not my greatest moment.

Dreamed about a place that changed my life.

Mom was very angry, very malicious.

My Father survived Soviet persecution for being a Christian.

My first girlfriend to say no was an atheist.

I shut down my yoga commune.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Mike S - part 2

Buddha and others miss the truth that Jesus reveals.

God cared about my piercings.

Low self esteem, depressed, even by middle school.

Dad confiscated my marijuana.

Reaching a child makes an impact.

This abused immigrant found hope.

Pawned Dad's tools, rare coins, and heirlooms, but he believed in me.

Survived face and body burns, melting skin.

Dreamed of suicide starting at 14.

Spent years pondering my sexual identity.

Forgave Mom, even after sexual abuse.

Is my fiancé still alive?

It seemed like the guy on TV was talking directly to me .

I was intoxicated at the wheel and my son died.

Feared death and hated blacks.

This "spiritual icon" needed to fix himself.

Stuttered, stumbled, picked last for teams.

Screamed at my abusive stepfather's grave.

Chased my ex-wife for five years.

From Judaism to Buddhism to Rosicrucianism.

Consulted a fortune-telling prophetic book.

Compelled to find lovers online.

Before turning to God, I got on my knees and asked Satan to grant all my sexual desires.

Drugged and gang raped, but found healing and hope.

Mother of five. Meth cook.

Terminally ill, I suddenly felt a warm sensation over my heart.

The arrest on my way to becoming a call girl led to salvation.

Social services removed me from our home.

Dad disowned me for going to church.

Lost my job and almost my wife before admitting the problem.

Escaped from gangs and machetes.

Confused kid. Part of me enjoyed the sexual abuse.

Football, parties, girls. Everything I needed.

Old fashioned preachers and mind control.

Chattanooga's major cocaine dealer thanks police.

Prisionero político en el campo de refugiados.

Addicted to a relationship.

Met my "Dad" at 13, but God became my real Dad.

Mocked, illiterate, then taught myself to read and write.

Mom knew the "fatal" wreck on the radio was me.

The 666 woman put a curse on my stomach.

From home invasions and gangs to a solid citizen.

No one used to trust me with their dog. Now I teach 6th graders.

An abused boy must prove his sexual manhood.

From a 4200 sq ft lake house to an RV.

My estranged daughter called from the hospital. I arrived drunk.

Verbally Abused.

Feeding the ego is an addiction.

Realized I had an egomania problem.

Healed from the secret life that started at age 13 .

My Jewish roommate blew my mind.

My father disowned me for getting baptized.

From starting NFL quarterback to cut and humiliated.

Elite job. Elite family. Still insecure.

Organized a week long drunk with my friends.

Five divorces by age thirty.

Found in a bathroom at two days old.

Followed my brilliant brother into atheism.

Thankful to not be rubbing snakes anymore.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

The music kept me from suicide.

My adultery with a pastor led me to God.

Because I said a prayer I thought I was saved.

Doctor said I might not be able to sing again.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

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Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

I pointed my rifle at the black people and prayed.

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Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

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Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

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Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

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Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

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Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

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Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

Methhead who wanted to die, but my boyfriend’s Mom wouldn’t let me.

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Once ran in place of God, now I "Run For God."

An early internet pioneer, for a time I was living the materialist dream.

We were the gang girls who ruled the school.

He managed the Dodgers but what about his own son?

Some go to counseling. I jump over cars.

Haunted by nightmares since childhood.

My son and husband's gunfight did not end well.

Two jobs, paid my own bills, but couldn't cover up the ghost in my past.

Sports, military, and the doctor I stared down

My plans for her life did not go as planned.

How my dark secrets were revealed on the highest rated TV shows.

I led a group of college students in and out of a yoga commune.

Married at 17 and 15, we have overcome so much.

Dad lost his life in depression, but I found the source of living.

She thought she was an orphan but God showed her the truth.

Not Ashamed to be a janitor.

Falsely imprisoned for murder, but I stuck to the truth.

It didn't go well with my white father-in-law.

Combat in Iraq continues at home

My Grandmother tried three times to abort me.

I told my secret to everyone.

Why did she believe in me?

Was I being trafficked?

Why do I fight?

My speech impediment led to mocking, thoughts of suicide.

They said my daughter wouldn't walk, but I believed she'd dance.

Nine years divorced, both remarried, but then we talked about getting back together.

Dignity Restored after the Pain of Abortion

Some go to counseling. I jump over cars.

From homeless immigrant to MBA graduate and homeowner.

When Dad is a Bible expert and a criminal

I needed more than the Rock n' Roll Hall of Fame

I overcame a white trash upbringing.

When Mom showed up at my meth trailer

Facing death from the needle.

The fall of the towns most powerful man.

Dealing for the mafia at age 15

Lost my right arm just before the NFL draft.

80 miles, 80 pushups on my 80th.

Insecure muscle man.

I wanted to be happy like them.

My boyfriend's biker gang threatened my baby.

More about finding God

From guns to gardening

No chemo could stop my cancer.

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