So I was seven whenever I smoked my first joint. So by the time I was fifteen I was pretty much out on my own. Dad couldn’t tell me anything. I didn’t want to go to school. I didn’t care what anybody had to tell me. That’s when I got taken away from my dad. We had got caught with a lot of marijuana. And DHS took me out. I turned eighteen and I moved out of my dads and dropped out of high school. The guy that I was going to Florida with, he ended up overdosing. I was actually on my way to Florida to a prostitute. I had never prostituted before and I was going to go down there for the first time and do it. I had run out of drugs and my body physically hurt. I didn’t know what I was going to do. So he promised me that if I went, he would give me the drugs as long as I would bring back the money. So I was willing to do that. I had broken into a county impound lot. Thinking that there was going to be drugs and stuff in there. The thing about it is, this truck that was in the impound lot was there for like three years. I knew there was nothing in it. But for some reason, I stopped there. Um, on my way. So after I done it the cops came and arrested me. I went to jail. It’s like no rehab would take me, though. I tried multiple different places. They would always tell me that the beds were too full. Or the waiting line was too long. My insurance finally just said; we are not even going to pay for you to go because you're already incarcerated. So, by this point, I had completely just given up. I was ready just to do my eight years and get it over with. And um, a couple of days later, the jail administrator came to me and she said; do you want to talk to someone? I said; well I don’t really know who I can talk to. So she sent the preacher in. He sat down and he talked to me. And he’s like there’s so much more that you can have for your life. I didn’t see it, though. All I saw was I was eighteen. In jail. I had nothing going for me. A couple days later I woke up with this yellow envelope. It was “women at the well.” I read it and I was like I don’t know if this is for me. I don’t know if this is a program that I need to go to. Everything I want to do. They don’t do there. I was probably there at least five months. Um, before I was ready to submit and just say I want to walk with you. I didn’t know who God was. I had never been saved. I had never really gone to church my whole life or anything. Now that I see that He was really moving in there the whole time. I asked him, I said; why do I constantly continue to get in trouble? And um, why can’t you just help me? Why can’t you help me through this? He began to talk to me. It was like we would sit there and we would talk back and forth. And um, I would read the bible. It was like He would put little messages through. In like Psalms and Proverbs. So it was all there. I just didn’t know what to do with it. And um, that’s probably when I was like, I am so in love with him. While I was there I got my G.E.D. I actually got accepted into the Emerging Leaders College. All of those charges were dropped, though. I actually just went to court. They dismissed everything. They said; you have so much going for you and we don’t really so no point in making this case go any further. So um, they dismissed everything.
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