From the age of ten to twelve years old, a friend of the family would sometimes take me home with them. That is when I was introduced to homosexual acts that were very degrading. It put such shame on me that it caused me to wither. Then it caused some outward behavior. I went into my early teens. I [thought] I had to prove my sexuality because I had to prove that I was a man. My thinking was, “I did these acts with men. This is leading toward homosexuality. I am a man!” I did have a problem of almost being addicted to sex with females. I was compulsively driven to have more sexual encounters. It was one per night. Sometimes two, sometimes three different partners in the same night.
My hair was down to my elbows. I had a pierced ear. I was living under a piece of plastic. I had gotten so far down I was eating out of a garbage can. A pastor came to the campsite where I was living and said, “Would you like to go to church today?” I said, “Well, not particularly, not really.” When he said, “We're going to have hot dogs after church.” I said, “Hmmm.” When he was up there preaching the word of God, I was like, “Who is this guy? What planet is he from?”
I woke up the middle of the night and started weeping and crying. Suddenly I said, “Jesus is real. He's real. He's real. He died for my sins.” He became so personal to me. He healed all of my past and so for the goodness of God, pay very close attention to me, He burned all that impure sexual thinking out of my mind. After that experience, I lived as a celibate from the age of twenty-two, when I got really saved, to the age of thirty-three, when I married. That proves He healed me of all of my past. I have been married now for twenty-eight years. My wife and I now conduct a marriage seminar about how to keep it “Hot, Happy, and Happening. How to have a marriage with a vision.”
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