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I haven’t dated that much, but with my first boyfriend, I just didn’t really hold that much of standards for myself. So I allowed myself to be verbally abused. I allowed him to talk down to me.
When you leave that arena, arriving at your top, which every athlete does, and it's over. For example, a professional like *Michael Jordan, who eventually retires, and he’s out of the game. Every athlete, high school athlete,...
You walk in a store they ask you about the games. People know who you are. You go into a store and there's your picture on posters. You can’t get away from it. People are paying for your meals at restaurants. Their bringing t...
There’s some sort of hole in your heart that you're still trying to get filled. You wish your Dad had said some wonderful things.
I could tell him things I couldn’t tell my friends. I later learned that’s what women who are abused do. They keep it a secret. Well, everything in my life was a secret anyway.
If I found myself messing up in one of those areas, or if I found myself not knowing what to say in front of a group of people I would be like; “Man you’re such an idiot!
"She thought I wasn't listening. But really I was."
I’ve never in my life felt so wanted and so and so needed and so desirable.
.....that’s when I began to take the pain medication to numb the hurt on the inside.
"I said to myself, “Okay God if I die tonight, I’m going to die obeying you.”